it's 10.25am & by rite i should b in sch an 1hrs 25mins ago but i'm nt, i'm at home instead. ytd slept at 3am in e morning & suppose 2 wake up at 6.30am in e morning but i off the alarm without knowing wad time izzit and went back to slp when the alarm rang. nw i'm listening 2 e same song as ytd nite b4 i went 2 slp. 2day woke up at ard 9am & look at my fone. i saw my dear dear's msg saying tat2nite dun find her coz she wan 2 go home alone. "anything happen" so do ask den folo up with another msg saying it's nt bcoz of you. once i saw e msg, tears flood my eye ball again & start 2 roll down. sentitive word again, "anything happen". wad would "anything happen" again? it can oso mean a lot of things which i dun wan 2 mention.obey or disobey? go or nt go? ask or don't ask? next i went 2 brush my teeth & took hussel down 4 walk feeling freaking down so hussel was having his walk den as long as he didn't "disturb" until ne ppl tat's fine. while walking, i heard a lot of noises coming frm blk 332 den i was very "fcuked up" & feeling freaking down. on i proceed with hussel's walk so while walking dere's some sms between me & my dear dear. i ask how long more it's going to drag on so she reply don't know... don't ask... not in the mood. just don't think too much... it's not related to me. so after tat i didn't reply at all. i reach home ard 9.45am coz hussel took a long walk den my dear dear smsme juz don't think too much... i reply den can i juz noe wad happen, she reply don't know how 2 put it in words so i reply nvm den... den she sms me again saying next time maybe we shouldn't meet as much often as b4 bcoz might depend on each other too much, might as well find some time meet friends so tat e bond of friends is still dere & also if we always meet, our friends de click is getting smaller & smaller. izzit about friendship? i duno... maybe i dun mind getting my friends de click smaller & smaller as i said i duno hu's my best friend nw after so long in school since sec1 until poly yr1 so even if i had a best friend, it does not make a difference. i duno izzit a different case 4 u? i'm nt sure. next my dear dear sms me say she regret working 2day coz BC coming so i asked her last min de or they say previously? den she reply nvm. ytd's feeling came back again. as i hit the keyboard button, tears flooded my eye ball again & i control it again until e extend where i couldn't hold it back nemore. WHY AGAIN?! I JUST LOVE YOU TOO MUCH TAT I KENOT CONTROL MY FEELINGS 4 U... DO U NOE TAT DEAR DEAR? I NOE I'M SELFISH, KEEP STICKING 2 U VERY CLOSELY EVEN AFTER TRAINING, I STILL COME DOWN FIND YOU ALTHOUGH IT'S LATE BUT I REALLY WANT TO JUST SEE YOU. I DUNO WAD KIND OF FEELING IS THIS BUT I WILL NOT BE AT EASE UNTIL I SEE THE FACE OF YOURS. I JUST LOVE YOU TAT'S ALL I NOE. SOMETIMES IT MIGHT BE TIRING 4 ME BUT I DUN MIND GOING THE EXTRA MILE NO MATTER HOW LONG IS IT JUST TO GET 2 SEE YOU. BUT ON UR PART, I NOE U R ALSO TIRED, I APOLOGISE 4 MY SELFISHNESS & DIDN'T THINK ABOUT UR FEELINGS. WHEN CAN WE BE RETURNED BACK TO OUR ORIGINAL DINGYUN WHERE WE ALWAYS CALLED EACH OTHER DEAR DEAR NON-STOP, HUGGING EACH OTHER NO MATTER WHERE WE ARE, HAVING DEEP DEPP KISSES EVEN THOUGH WE ARE IN THE PUBLIC OR WHERE? I REALLY HATE DIS KIND OF FEELING. I ASKED DIS QUESTION TO MYSELF AS TEARS IS ROLLING DOWN, WHEN? due 2 e regards of ytd & 2day, WHEN?
