Love; it can make u smile for the rest of your life,but it can also make you cry for the rest of your life. yet why are we always taking the risk, and even plunge further into the river of love when we know we are going to drown in sorrow ? maybe that's the power of love; i will be contented , even with two hour of tears alone , just for that one second of kiss with u
To forget you : this is the most impossible thing to do . To forgot is just an interpretation . An immeasurable love's memories can never be wiped off. Time doesn’t devour memories : it just slowly,painfully converts it into fragments of a dream. Occasionally, something will spark the wrath of the dream , and the dream will alter into a memory again . To forget you . in not to remember you ,. Every single detail in life reflects you . every MRT station I see. Every drink I drink every shirt I wear. But to forget you , what I have to do is not to remember you , not to remember tat we once kissed at this mrt station not to remember that we shared that drink . not to remember that you brought me that shirt .For now, sinking into a memory of one of the touches you stroked on me, I cannot remember
physical touch , but I can remember the delicacy of it
Have I forgotten you , superwomen ? when I tried to forget you , I had just though of you again , are you ? are you thinking of me now ? as my mind revolves with your image again n again ? It was not a decision based on emotion when I decided to break the news to you
Before i fell in love with you , i though romance novel were just so silly, why would a person cry for another person for hours ? how could a person wait for his love for years ?that is plain silliness.
before we become a couple , i though romance movies were jus so stupid : how could a person love another person so deeply that it became an obsession/? how could one sacrifice so much even to the
extend of his own life , for his lover ? that is plain stupidity.
when i realized i had fallen so deeply in love with you , i finally understood that songs, novel and movies are just a reflection of life , inspired by the writer;s true stories.
because when i decided to end our relationship , i realized Ur story mirrors a love song that i once heard a novel you once read a movie tat we once wanted.
when i step out of the main door,i love you deeply . but i am going to tell you that we are going to separate soon , the pain is not the sepa ration . the pain is the love that we share the love that was once blissful is never going to be refreshed again
the pain is that we are still so much in love. yet we have to let go now . only someone who had experienced this before will understand, isn't it ironic ? is my profound love for you that brought us together . Now is the same profound love that will separate us. we had known each other foe two hundred and thirteen months now . and have been together for ninety months you should have seen it coming right ? for the last few's months i have been exceptionally quiet, it used to be me calling you in the night more then u calling me. but last month i din even give you a call . you were the one who called.
you can feel it right ? we used to meet at least four times week but last month we met only once a week .you scolded me but you can tell tat i din glee a speck of remorse right ? "I'm sorry ", i start , my voice cutting into the tranquil night i have come today not to explain but to inform . i din parked near the road an unfamiliar parking position . " what?' for begin late again ? in use to it . superman / what is the thing that you ca not say on the phone ?
"I think ... we should break up" you smile, that smile that used to melt my heart ,i look away as Ur voice rings
choc kingly into my ears:"Yeach, me too."May be there ;s laughter , i cant tell, "im not joking" i say . are you still putting on tat smile .. it must be hard for you to digest this for i never crack this kind of joke . the silence slices back , and i feel like we are two trapped butterfly in a bottle waiting to be experiment on .."Im sorry im sorry im sorry " . I step back im sorry " i say again .and distance away from you ."SORRY" i say again "sorry" i forgotten how many apologies i made .we are separated by a pair of closed gates between us, what you need to do us to push a button on ur remote key n the barrier between the both of us, the gate will hit mi as it swing outward toward mi .
Isn't that an appalling reflection of ur relationship? breaking the barrier will allow us to be together but one of us will be hurt . one of us has to give way and i have volunteered to be the one .
i turn and walk toward my bike . maybe you are crying . haven't you seen it coming ? these few months our conversation were like two stranger who had just be come friend ? six step later , i finally turn my head a little to steal a glance . a final glance maybe at you . i can not see you clearly becoz in front of my eyes are my own tear. are they tears if sorrow or tears of relief?"come
back you stupid idiot!" i turn my key on my motorbike and the headlight shone . then i push the "start" button n e bike roars a little "why?"after you said tat. the sound of the gates opening echoes into the serene night , as you march toward mi . i can hear your every step . " please tell mi why ? is a joke right ? right? I fix my eyes on the bike . not wanting you to see my reddened eyes
"STOP RIGHT THERE" you say . and grab my hand ,. i Push your hand away gently. i can remember the delicacy . but not the touch i have forgotten the touch but nt the delicacy why so i think of blood when u said tat u were crying "sorry" "u don remember ur promise ? " i sit on my bike n put on my helmet. "How about super land( is there dream to open a super market, define by meiyunhahha)"how about our promises ? how about our time capsules ? we can work things out , superman!" super land , our promised land. our time capsules. we will be mARRIED ? apples day ? super day ?
i press on to the clutch and kick the gear one . ur eyes are red and u are blinking fast .waiting for ans from mi / thought my full face hamlet. i jus say sheepishly . "Iam sorry please don look for mi anymore" may be you din hear tat for the voice is soft n despair i release the clutch , twist the throttle n lift both my legs up/ "COME back... you stupid idiot"ur voice faints off . jus like our memories before i leave my flat . i had already put all my emotion on hold; i will no longer be controlled by my emotion or by you . don you understand ? superwomen > it's for you own good. why will i want to break up with you . when laughter n bliss surround us>? becoz i can no longer provide you with the same happiness i will belated for our dates for 2hr, 4hr 8hr, 16 hr , days , months , you will disappear from my life soon. while i will live in ur mind endlessly. becoz if both of us are to cry . i want to be the one who cries louder . i want to be the one who take the longer time to recover. i wan to absorb all the sadness from you
why don't i disappear instead , so tat you will find another superman who loves you truly .
the utmost pain in this wold is not breaking up with u . it is remembering the love tat we once shared yet there is no likelihood to revive this love once again i don remember the tears , i only remember the pain
?"after you said tat. the sound of the gates opening echoes
